it is in the language that dies with him
it is in the culture that he preserves in miniatures
it is in the life that he left and the fear that has over taken him

he can't go back, that isn't what he was meant to do
he was chosen, he had earned the chance life experience that others fought for
but he feels so ungrateful

a lonely disappointment
he has not intergrated
he has failed, but on paper, he's extraordinary
and he finds himself just wishing to turn back time

Kimi log: everything is extraordinary and new despite the longing
the language lives and evolves; new ways to express oneself in several ways
the cultures meld and intertwine. it is a dance of tradition and forging new paths. the old ones know and there is a lot to glean from them
nothing is muffled, rebellions grow

he does not understand much after several months away from the wide expansive ocean, but he builds a community that he can't see yet
he does well as i have reported along with my findings. like the waves, his mental health ebbs up and down
but i see him, i hear him, and he is cared for